I know what it means to gain someone's trust and to have it withdrawn from you. It can be a slow climb to reconciliation even after forgiveness. Trust is a precious 🎁. It's a super expensive currency above money. It generates profit for me even while I sleep.
I have tasted what it means to be involved in work you enjoy, where time is eternal, and 8hrs seems like 1hr, where the weekend is a distraction, and the weekdays are action 🎬 packed!
I know how it feels to be praised monumentally and to be bashed for one error, with all your good works in the past forgotten. The praise of men is like chewing gum, never to be swallowed.
I am a long-term student of delayed gratification. I know how it feels to want to spend on yourself but have to arrest that desire so others can be helped. I am a decade long in that school. It's a school that seems to have no graduation date yet. I am aggressively looking forward to the days when I can have my desires fulfilled as well as that of others, without having to trade mine for theirs all the time. We can both be equally happy.
I know what it means to be used only for the value you offer and then jettisoned. To be remembered only because of the value you add to people, not because you are cared about, but because of what people cannot obtain from you in your absence. People are only attracted to your gift and not you. No more gifts, no more attractiveness. Selfish but factual. This understanding keeps one's personality balanced. Though others may project that to me, I take an intentional leap not to project that to others. I seek for ways to activate goodness in people's lives above their desire to activate goodness in my life.
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